WINDOW ON NEW WORLD (Pain from childhood)
Greetings, my dear beloved children!
So, as a follow-up to my previous message let us talk about the things that prevent you from remaining yourselves all the time.
Most often one tries to seem better than one really is because of the desire to conceal one’s weak points.
As a rule, they are something too personal and so deep that sometimes a person cannot define clearly themselves what they are.
Most of them originate in childhood.
These are the very never-healing children’s wounds that influence all the grown-up’s life of a person in a hidden way.
So, if a child was often scolded and punished, being an adult they constantly strive for proving to others that they are good though no one is going to reproach them for anything this time.
This results from the fact that in their subconscience there got firmly fixed an idea that they are unsound in something.
Sometimes they cannot decide themselves in what exactly but since they were always scolded in childhood this has already become the “background” of their life: they are bad, invalid, not worth of being loved.
Well, lack of love is but the most horrible punishment in one’s life.
Therefore, so as to gain someone’s love one is ready for anything.
They start carrying their readiness for help too far – in an exaggerated manner – supposing that people should respond to their “kindness” with love.
And they get very surprised and offended if it does not happen.
But the reason for this is very simple: by intuition people feel their servility’s falsity – that they are not sweet but sugary.
Feel the difference between the two words’ vibrations.
True kindness is never unctuous, servile or obsequious.
True kindness is full of dignity.
But the main thing is that it originates in heart, not mind that is why it does not care about consequences or even gratitude.
A person who does good from the generosity of their soul is in essence different from the one who does “good” keeping the result in mind and expecting a response.
Not everyone is to feel this fine distinction but only those who feel energies keenly since deeds that seem similar at first sight can feature different vibrations – from the lowest to the highest.
So, in case of one person it can be a pure impulse inspired by soul, while in case of another one – expectation to get something in return, of still another one – the desire to highlight their strong points to be praised and so on and so forth.
There can be a variety of nuances depending on individual traits of a person as well as their latent deep complexes and inner shocks experienced.
That is why so as to get a true idea of oneself one sometimes has to come back to one’s past to recall one’s children and youth wounds that could influence one’s later world perception and attitude to people.
Here we will stop for today.
Loving you endlessly,
Father-Absolute spoke to you
Channeled by Marta on September 10, 2023.
